with this

With this Momentum that seems to be building towards adoption I just
need to say that my body and mind and soul
still longs for a pregnancy.

For the past few days
I tried to reconcile these feelings and
it still comes out
that I need to again try this whole 9 month process.

I almost fear that I wont get the chance, and I think daily on
epidural versus Cesarean

that is where I am
still